Beer Goggles

As I was eatting at a Chinese buffet for lunch, I noticed this really drunk guy who's trying to get up to get more food. It disguses me as to why or how some people tend to take advantage of other people who are drunk, like rape or forced oral. Maybe they don't have anything better to do in their lives. :) Sex just disguses me sometimes.....and I wonder why I don't get laid?????

[[[Sigh]]]

I'm so alone and sad sometimes it sickens me. I can't get out of bed and my thoughts just wonder Why, why, why????? Why don't I have anyone that truly cares about me? I think that is because I'm really ugly and super dumb. Maybe its because I apply my makeup incorrectly. Maybe I need more than eyeliner and lip gloss. I saw this girl in my French class that was absolutely caked on makeup. It was two girls, actually. Maybe I should take note of them and do my makeup very heavily.

I hate how I don't have a bf. And I hate even more that i feel down this way. I tell myself that things will eventually change, that things will get better. Things did not get better.... I think that my greatest hope is to kill myself and end my life already. sometimes I feel too happy to do it. My moods change.

If only the world could be a better place if everyone has beer goggles. Getting laid would be no hard task.